Craving God

    I often struggle with seeing my shortcomings in the world's eyes rather than basing my value on my identity in Christ.  I find learning new things very difficult at times.  Once I get it, I have it for life, but the process is difficult.  The process can leave me discouraged, stressed, and tired.  If I am not careful, I will take my eyes off God and fall into a pit of human responses.
     I was starting to get there recently.  It had been a long time since I had to start over, almost from scratch.  I prayed to be a missionary.  That God send me where ever He desired and I listened to Godly people and did all I could to prepare to be a good and faithful steward and servant of God.  Since actually getting to the foreign mission field God has retaught me to accept my limitations and praise Him for the strengths and gifts that He has given me.

     My gifts were feeling a little inferior to others.  Then I started reading "Craving God" by Lori TerKeurst.  Everyday has been feeding my insecure soul.  I read and realize that my struggles are so different than hers.  My personality seems to be so different than hers, but I am reading her words and I feel her vulnerability.  I feel that she really prayed over every word before putting it on paper.  I hope that my blogs do the same for others. 
     I am not perfect, not even close, but I love God and I crave to be near Him.  I pray today for you to have the same desire.  That you search your heart and find the perfect fit in serving HIM.  That you too except your limitations and learn to love them.  It ultimately will just make it easier to serve Him in the way He desires.  Remember, He wants you close to Him.  He is yearning for a relationship, not a superficial show.

⁹ “And you, my son Solomon, acknowledge the God of your father, and serve him with wholehearted devotion and with a willing mind, for the Lord searches every heart and understands every desire and every thought. If you seek him, he will be found by you; but if you forsake him, he will reject you forever. ¹⁰ Consider now, for the Lord has chosen you to build a house as the sanctuary. Be strong and do the work.”

1 Chronicles 28:9-10