Timing

     The number one thing I have been reminding myself is that everything is in God's timing and not mine.  I made a commitment to My Abba Jehovah to follow Him on His terms and not mine.  If you have ever made a vow or promise like that then you understand how hard that is.  I truly understand what it means to die to yourself daily and pick up the cross to follow Christ.  I want to be Christ like and not the weak stubborn Amberly without Him.  It brings peace, joy, and love.  However, the earthly side of myself brings frustration, lack of faith, and at times despair.  I have had a good look at myself and I know who I am.  I know that my doubts and fears come from a very strong advisory, Satan.  I also know that he only has as much power over me that I will allow him.  So there is my battle, like Paul.  I want to live like Christ.  I want to be strong and have unending love.  My flesh wants to do things my way or the easier way. 
     So pray for me.  I know that not asking people directly for partnering with me financially is the path that God has led.  I know it is the path that will show His glory and everyone involved with be blessed beyond my comprehension.  My flesh fights it because I wonder how many people truly are going to listen to God's prompting.  I have doubts that the money will come in.  It is the flesh, I know, but I am not the only person who fights against the flesh.  I am praying for you to hear God's desire for your life (not just about my mission, but the path He has for you).  I want everyone to know what it is like to be where He wants you to be.  It is never the easy path, but it is the most fulfilling path.