God is Good

      During this process of trying to raise funds to go serve God in another country, a country that I am falling in love with without ever have been there, I have found it has changed my prayer life.  For years my prayer life has represented where I was in my growth into being a mature Christian.  Over the last few months it has been reduced down to God please Help.  That is fine, but I miss the intimacy of just being with Him.
      It was really bothering me, but while I was at SIMGo I got a book called Developing Intimacy with God by Alex B. Aronis.  I have not gotten far, but it has touched my heart.  It pointed out how too often we go to God for something.  We have expectations, wishes, or even guilt.  It reminded me that I just need to go to God to be in His presence.  I don't need to go into my daily devotion with the expectation or search for some moral enlightment. 
     It has been a great reminder on how to love God and just wait for Him to provide for my needs because He will.  How do I know?  Easy!  He loved me.  He loves me more than anyone else could and He wants what is best for me.  He knows my heart.  He know that I want to live a life to glorify Him.  He knows that I am not perfect and that I will mess up, but doesn't want me to beat myself up.  He wants me to repent and start over.  We are all His children and all he want is us.

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength." Mark 12:30