Enlightment

    

     You know the saying that God will keep presenting you with the same challenges until you finally learn the lesson.   Well, I think I am finally discovering what He is telling me.  The year 2013 was the year of rejection.  It humbled me and allowed me to grow in all my relationships in a new way.  I started making time for the people I love again.  I began to appreciate the small things that I had not had the time or energy to notice anymore.  Now in 2014 has been the year of hope.  I am keeping what I learned last year and applying it to this year, but now I have focus again.  That can be dangerous for me because I am like a train, once I get going I have single vision and almost nothing will stop me. 
     The lesson God is working on me is not to be so focused that I lose the importance of what He is doing all around me or ignore the relationships that I care about so much.  On the other hand, I can get so caught up in the momentary challenges of life and lose the big picture.  As you can tell, at times I am a hot mess.)  It has been disappointing when I thought that I would be in Bolivia right now and even more disappointing now that I am not sure that I will make it there this year.  I know God is doing something, so I am searching for Him.  He loves me so much how could He possibly delay His work for me unless He had something great planned.  On the other hand, please, be praying because Satan knows how vulnerable I am and loves to attack the vulnerable.
     Walking by faith can be a little scary at times because you can't necessarily follow a path.  On the other hand, that is what makes it so exciting.  I am a planner, so the up in the air thing throws me off, but I love knowing that I am in His arms even when I fall.  I don't want to get stuck back in the normal rut.  I hated that life.  It was so confining.  I love relying on Abba and being free.  I love how He has opened my heart to be able to love so freely and that He puts people in my path that I can encourage and how will encourage me. 

 

"By this shall all (people) know that you are My disciples, if you love one another (if you keep on showing love among yourself)" John 13:35